Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Kebetulan

the wonder of teaching is watching caterpillars become butterflies

dias amigos :D
percaya nggak sama yang namanya 'kebetulan'? saya sih percayanya sama Tuhan, hehe, tapi baru saja mengalami sesuatu hal yang kebetulan.
ceritanya pas bangun pagi ini saya keingetan murid2 les inggris saya dulu jaman SMA, nggak tau gimana bisa keingetan mereka, oke saya memang nggak ingat semuanya, dulu saya pernah mengajar di dua kelas.. tapi satu kelas yang sangat berkesan dan saya ajar paling lama, orang2nya lucu2, waktu itu mereka rata2 baru masuk SMP.
yang pertama akan saya ceritakan bernama frismaneli, dulu dia masih anak2 dengan senyum manis dan rambut pendek lurus. frisma rumahnya jauuh sekali dr tempat les, tetapi rajin masuk. sampai saya lulus, frisma masih sering menghubungi saya via telpon dan sms, tapi sekarang saya lose contact -_-
kedua namanya nurhadiansyah, orangnya supertinggi, jago beladiri, dulu dian anaknya pendiaam sekali, setelah selesai les, kami nggak pernah ketemu lagi, tapi kebetulan 2 tahun lalu, ketika saya mudik dan main ke almamater saya, smansa, saya liat dian, oh my, dia tinggi sekali, eh bukan itu maksudnya saya surprise ngeliat orang yang dulu waktu les sama saya masih anak2 eh 2 tahun lalu udah jadi junior saya di SMA..
yang ketiga namanya putra, anaknya rame, asik, dan dia lucuuu, putra kalo berangkat les naik sepeda. saya ingat putra pernah nyanyiin lagunya saykoji di kelas waktu lagi heboh2nya, "lo bilang bokap lo pengusaha, bokap lo kaya raya, so what gitu loh?" say audah lupa liriknya, tapi kira2 begitu :D
berikutnya ada rida, rida ini anaknya cerewet sekali, ramee, suka nyeletuk2, kecil2 cabe rawit.. setelah lama di kelas saya, saya baru tahu ternyata rida itu adik teman seangkatan saya di SMA, hehe.. lucu rasanya mengajar adik teman ;)
yang terakhir saya ceritain ini namanya ricko, dia teman seangkatan adek saya waktu SMP. si ricko ini anaknya cuek banget, tapi dia rajin les, walopun ujan2 juga dia tetep datang, saya inget banget walopun celana jeansnya basah tetep aja ikut les. sampai selesai les dan sesudahnya, saya dan ricko masih sering berhubungan leat sms, kebetulan kakaknya ricko, si ricki, adalah adik tingkat saya di SMA, sampai saya kuliah dan ricko SMA pun, kami masih sering bertukar kabar. tahun lalu, ketika diajak masuk kelas bahasa inggris sm ibu guru saya tercinta, saya ketemu ricko lagi, senang rasanya, dulu terakhir ketemu teman2 saya ini masih kecil2, masih cupu dan lugu, hehe.. sekarang semuanya udah remaja mendekati dewasa. terakhir ricko menghubungi bercerita soal dilemanya masuk PTN atau Akpol, tetapi sekarang ricko ternyata sudah semester 2 di trisakti, aah.. time's going so fast ;)
sebenarnya masih banyak murid saya yang lain, tapi sejujurnya saya juga banyak lupa -_-
nah kebetulannya itu pas tadi pagi saya keingetan sama mereka, sekitar jam 10, ada satu friend request di fb, dan wow, surprise setelah lama ngga kedengeran kabarnya, ternyata itu si ricko, alhamdulilah, setidaknya ketemu dengan salah satud ari mereka di fb...
ah kangen berada di kelas itu, ngeliat muka2 polos, muka2 nggak ngerti, muka2 paham.. belajar bahasa inggris, belajar grammar, hafalan vocab, kelas conversation. it's soo yesterday.. udah 6 tahun lewat..

ehm.. oh iya.. now I am a Tutor, oh saya malu bilangnya.. makasih lah buat didi dan teh sendy yang percaya sama saya untuk menjadi tutor kelas global governance untuk 60 anak, dengan frekuensi bertemu 30 anak per minggu. saya merasa takut tidak cukup berkualitas untuk ini meskipun saya sempat loncat2 saat pertamakali ditawari, yaa! saya akan duduk di depan kelas lagi!. kata didi dan teh sendy saya bisa, dan inilah saya sekarang, saya berharap saya nggak cuma jadi fasilitator di kelas saja, I hope I can get along well with them :)

By learning you will teach;
by teaching you will understand.

Monday, March 29, 2010

He's Just Not That Into Me

Hola Amigos..
yesterday was a 'rainy' day so I decided to put off my internet cable and looked for something to read. But then I felt so bored so I opened my old box and looked for some DVDs to be watched. well there were some movies that I've bought since even some years ago but I never watched them. while choosing a movie, my eyes stucked in 'He's just not that into you'. I've had this movie for almost a year but never played it on. when I was in KKN, a friend also bought this movie but still had no mood to watch it. looking at the title, I was just afraid.. I didnt know what was I afraid about, but now I realize it. I didnt want to know if 'he's just not into me'. How shame, I was running away.
but not now, thing has changed, I've learn a lot.. yesterday I finally watched it, along the movies I often said, "oh it's just like me". I love everyword said by the actors and the actresses, they're all mad me feel better.

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave."
"And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a wonderful guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment, you never gave up hope."
(He's just not that into you, 2009)

Saturday, March 27, 2010

(Maybe) Unfair

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Sunday, March 21, 2010

Here Comes The Sun

http://cittawidagdo.files.wordpress.com/2009/11/kiddo1.jpg

such a cute pie, when I browsed pictures with the keyword 'kiddo', I finally found this. Aha, how LIFE is full of expressions.
foto diatas lucu kan? *iya lucu sekalii. Baiklah, di pagi hari ini sebelum mandi saya iseng browsing gambar2 *hal yang udah lamaa sekali nggak saya lakukan. Kenapa saya iseng? karena kepala saya sedang pusing kebanyakan acara dan kerjaan *cih* akhir2 ini. Obat pusing yang paling mujarab itu buat saya bukan facebook atau twitter (kadang kamu bahkan tambah pusing liat fb atau twitter). Obat pusing itu sama dengan musicing, writing, blogwalking, dan browsing gambar2 lucu yang bisa menghibur. dan inilah hasilnya. wah kalo saya dikasih anak ini, mauu, hehe..
so here comes the SUN :)
I do love 'Bee Movie' and I love the way Sheryl Crow sang this song. lebih suka yang ini daripada versi aslinya...


Friday, March 19, 2010

This is Just Another Weekend :)

heyhoo.. finally it's saturday, the day which means nothing to someone like me who always has nothing to do with monday and even sunday, everyday is just the same :p. last night a fella texted me and inviting me to move my feet jogging the day after. and yes, today, this morning, I woke up early at the supercold moment then I walked out from my room, picking my friend up and went to campuss.
what a fresh morning, it has been long time since the last time I jogged. I love the weather, a lilltle bit misty and cold but fresh anyway.
well, my campuss is very beutiful in the early morning. we jogged around many faculties, someties we stopped while looking at new things, the things we've never seen before, like the new SPORT CENTER, Sughoiii!!! it's great but I think I wont have any chances to use it.
in the front yard of Kampus Unpad Jatinangor, there's a new football court with a good jogging track around it but unfortunately, we couldnt use it yet because it has not finished yet.
actually it was no problem jogging not in a jogging track but wow, our campuss is a rocky and uphill, haha.. still it's okay, we just stopped a moment when we were tired.
so how do I feel now? SO GOOD, I feel like I've removed the bad aura from my mind :D
my body is so fresh now, wanna do it again, I wanna RUN, yes and FASTER fellas :)
have a nice day amigos..

Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.
(Michael Jordan)

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Penny and Me (were)

Just like the rainbow after the rain,
a good thing will always happen after you experience pain.
What a week, thanks God for arranging many ‘surprise’ for me, I'm grateful that I can survive till now. A hard week, it seemed like everythings around me said, “Hey be tough you girl!”
I sumtimes would feel so useless if I couldnt stop dramaing my heart.
What am I actually thinking by doing such a useless things, Oh cmon, million of people in the other continent are starving now. Still million of people too are ailing killed viruses. Then million of people are losing home, losing families, losing life by the disaster, and ME? Alhamdulilah I’m healthy all over my body, I aint lack of anything, I still eat, I dont suffer from any viruses, and thanks God I live in a safe area.
Then WHY? Why I spent most of my time thinking of you, you’re even stay in my mind while I’m running, why are you everywhere to me, hey the one who actually useless for me? It’s because I’m tired, but I dont know how to deal with it. It’s not like I’ve got e fever so I could get paracetamol for curing, but in this case, I’m sick and YOU are the medicine that I’ll never get.
Even if someday you come, I swear myself I wont give you although just a damned little attention. I mean after all you’ve done, you wont deserve it. I think I’d better suffering all my life. You have to know that maybe NOW I’m so fool but, hey isnt it LIFE? You have to learn to be GOOD. Now I’m learning, err not now, all these years, thanks to YOU. Believe me I’m always wishing you a happy life though you’ve ruined me. Me too always put you at my highest pride, even when you left me without saying anything. And most important is the fact that there’s no one like you, thanks God for everything we’ve been through. You might be irreplaceble but if I could choose, I’d rather be with someone who will stay and never leave.


hey, no, this is not a song for you, this is for my dog and I dont know why I keep playing this song along day.. I'm just in love with it..
"Cigars in the summertime
Under the sky
By the light
I can feel you read my mind
I can see it in your eyes
Under the moon as it plays like music every line
There's a rug with a bleeding dye
Under the fan
In the room where the passion is burning high
By the chair with the leopard skin under the light
It's always Penny and me tonight"
...
"Staring at a million city lights
But still Penny and I are all alone beneath the sky
Feel the wind rushing slowly by
If I could soar I would try to take these wings and fly
Away to where the leaves turn red but no matter where I am instead
Singing along to feeling alright
Or making it by pink moonlight
It's always Penny and me tonight"
...
"Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up
Push the pedal to the ground
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes
Pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight"
...
"Penny likes to get away and drown her pain in lemonade
Penny dreams of rainy days and nights up late by the fireplace
And aimless conversations 'bout the better days
Singing along to feeling alright
Making it by under pink moonlight
It's always Penny and me tonight"
...
Penny and Me (Hanson)



Friday, March 12, 2010

Zzz...

A: Haha, I'm so stupid. I fell for him, knowing for a fact he wouldn't catch me. Damn, that fall sure did hurt
B: why do you have to be? he didnt deserve you
A: yes I have to, I dont have any reasons to fall for him. When I say, “I love him,” it’s not because I want him or because I can’t have him. It has nothing to do with me. I love what he is, what he does, how he try. I’ve seen his kindness and his strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of him. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what he is.
B: If then could you please loving him without hoping?
A: I should be a saint
B: Yes you are, you fall for the one who ruined you. It's more than enough to be a saint
A: But I'd rather be with him than being a saint
B: You're just selfish. You said that you fell for him but you dont even accept that he fell for other
A: Why? after all we've been through?
B: He's just the same as you
A: No he isnt, he's heartless
B: You're all wrong, when you said that you dont have any reasons to fall for him, he doesnt too, he doenst have any reasons to fall for her
A: ...
B: Dont cry
A: No, I'm not, I'll look fooler if I cry
B: You deserve more, believe me
A: no, that's not it. how do I get better once I got the best?
B: Relationships are not about whom you've known the longest, or who cared first or who cared best... it's all about who came and never left.
A: I think I'm gonna cry
B: Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see life with a clearer view again
A: I dont know if the pain is gone or if I'm just getting used to it
B: Never dwell on the past and dont allow the future to scare you, because it will crush the happiness of your present
A: nothing quite like the feel of something new. maybe i’m all messed up
B: You deserve more..
A: I hope so..

nb: quotes are from many sources rearranged by me

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

I am Happy Today

a kind of advertisement but this is my favorite drink before doing sport :D (photo by me)
us vs the oldstar
on a break
look, I was truly happy
me on the field, nothing to worry but the ball and the opponents
with our coach, ajay, ready to fight :D
preparing for the game
(all photos above taken by ajay)


HOLA AMIGOS..
what am I so happy about today is that I finally met my supervisor and mad some movement on my thesis. but wait, no that's not it, I was so happy because I could join a class this day. International Law II class, my supervisor's class. I've been given a chance for one more time sitting in a classroom, learning my favorite subject about The Law of The Sea. I love to learn how a state struggled to protect the sea as the part of their sovereignity. espesially for Indonesia as an archipelagic state, I think that I should have known manything about the law of the sea, about the territorial sea, normal baseline, straight baseline, the right of innocent passage, historical bay, etc.. (I'm not giving a lecture here so if you need to know more just ask me later :D). Indonesia is a big country but unfortunately we still dont have any ability to protect all of our sea, even untill now, we havent finished to determine our boundaries with singapore yet. we've been fooled so many times by that little-but-shrewd state-city and we cant deny the fact that we still about so far to claim anything related to our right in our sea. me, as Indonesian scholar of international relation want to understand this matter deeper, who knows that someday I'll be the delegate of Indonesia to struggle for the existence of our sea, amiin ;)

well it wasnt just it. this afternoon, I was joining a futsal match delegated by 2006 to battle against oldstar team (2005,2004,2003). this match perfectly ended this perfect noon. I'm not so good at sport but I might have bigger spirit to do it more than anyone else. I love being in a game. I love to move my body on the court. I love when I have time to not thingking about anything but kicking the ball. I love the moment when I dont remember anything but controlling the ball.

well finally, the game ended us with 1-4 scores. yes, we were defeated by the oldstar team, but it's not like when I'm in a speech or debating contest where I'd be dying sad if I lost. in that game though we're not the winner, we're all happy (it showed on our faces). the oldstar team which is most of are the athletes of our faculty (and of our campuss too) were great rivals that mad the game became more interensting. I'm now so tired, I got cramps all over my body (no wonder I havent been in a game for long time) but I feel like I've got my mind refreshed, I hope you all feel the same :D

nb: I honestly say that I cant wait for the next match :)

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

(I wish) My Last Year

we learned together to love our job
let's go to 'Dakken' once more mates :)
we couldnt make it to 'Rumah Sosis' but 'se7en' was enough since we're together :)
time's running out and one of us has been leaving
dont you miss Keyla? that brillian kid :p
we were even gangsters :D
we're tired of our make up but we spent that night together

let's do that silly pose again :D
happy to se you teenagers ;)
I love you full dear jasmine crews :)
with all those ITB'ers, the future engineers
we were so cute in those Yukata :p
I miss the time we mad 'Majalah Dinding' infokomers
I was mad because of Symphonesia 2008, but thanks God you're all with me :)
we are the research department
we were the IR journalists :D
look what we were in our first year :))
Bali was a great experience with La Via Campesina, VIVA Campesina :D
A year ago acting such idiots at ITB :p

hey, I'm just wondering of something this early morning.. when I've just woken up from my short sleep, I suddenly looked at the calendar and realize that this is (should be) my last semester in university. This means I will soon graduate, no longer trouble my parents and can live independently. but on the other hand, I am sad to part with my friends on campus. four years is not a long time but more than enough to know close to the campus and its contents. well, I'm not even good in saying such a parting words though I've experienced it manytimes. it's not like I'm dying without my friends, no.. me and my friends will absolutely have our own way, we'll be totally part when we've had our own life. my future is not depend on them and theirs arent depend on me too. then why do we have to be closed in these last months? it's not because I have no choice, no.. it's just because I dont need any reasons to have friends and so I dont need any reasons to leave anyone but let's stay close these last months :)
*To have a friend, be a friend.

Monday, March 1, 2010

The Skripsweet

beberapa jam yang lalu saya baru aja curhat ga penting bahwa saya siap sekali bimbingan hari ini, memang benar, saya siap tapi sekarang saya benar2 merasa sakit hatii, apa salah dan dosa saya #lebay. sakit hati kali ini jauh lebih sakit rasanya daripada patah hati sekalipun (eh emang gimana rasanya patah hati? gatau juga).
oke orang yang saya tunggu2 tiba2 nggak bisa datang karena sedang ada urusan di kantor pajak, hancur hati saya mendengarnya. well, tenang, orang ini bukan pacar saya, dan statusnya lebih ribet dari sekedar pacar, beliau ini adalah dosen pembimbing saya yang saya hargai.. tau nggak gimana rasanya? persis seperti ditusuk2 jarum #iklan banget.
dengan langkah lunglai gontai lemah letih lesu saya pulang ke kosan, yah, inilah saya sekarang. alih2 meneruskan bab 1 saya malah mampir dulu di blogger.com.
oiya saya baru ingat, blog saya ini umurnya sudah 2 tahun. saya kembali baca2 postingan awal saya, ah kangennya masa2 kuliah #berasaudahlulus. ada juga beberapa bagian yang membuat saya mikir, ih saya dulu bego ya (sekarang juga masih sih..), ih saya nyebelin banget ya (banyakan nggak pentingnya). well, pertama kali bikin blog saya nggak berpikiran untuk membagikan pada masyarakat dunia maya tentang pemikiran2 saya yang cemerlang (honestly I'm not a philosopher, I'm just a thinker :D), pernah ada yang berkomentar "eh wid, blog lu yang isinya curhat2an semua ya?", dengan lapang dada saya jawab, iya, memang ini blog isinya kebanyakan curhat. saya dulunya nggak begitu suka cerita sama orang lain, lebih suka dituliskan disini. saya pengen suatu hari nanti, walopun saya udah nggak tau ada di dunia mana, ada yang menemukan blog saya, dan tau bahwa saya pernah ada, hehe..
saya nggak menulis apa yang menurut orang lain keren atau cool, saya menulis apa yang ingin saya tulis, apa yang saya rasakan, dan apa yang saya alami. saya juga nggak berharap orang2 membaca tulisan2 saya (mendingan kalian baca buku baylis, itu lebih bermanfaat :D)
hm.. baiklah, saya rasa ini adalah sindrom orang stress karena skripsi, eh sebenarnya saya tidak sesetres itu juga sih, tenang kawan, skripsi tidak akan merusak masa mudamu *makin ngawur
udah ah.. saya mau lanjut kerjain bab 1 saya..