Akhirnya aku memiliki THE HOBBIT

hari ini ada kuliah umum sama dubes indonesia untuk serbia, pulangnya aku ke gramed, pengen beliin buku tentang web buat dang andi, kan sekarang kata rama yang paling gampang pake Joomla, eeehhh... dang andi minta yang html, binun euy...
besok2 aja x yaaa...
akhirnya aku nyari buku buat sendiri,
setelah sekian lama ke gramed dengan mupeng, tadi aku terpuaskan sudah, hehe...
aku beli the hobbitnya J.R.R.Tolkien, buku ini udah beberapa kali masuh berita, katanya terjual banyak banget dengan harga yang mahal di luar negri sana.. eh di gramed ada, ga terlalu mahal, jadilah aku beli, mudah2an sebagus Lord of The Ring...
senengnyaaa...
lumayan, hiburan penghilang stres.
dina beli virgin suicide, cerita tentang cawan suci gitu, pengen pinjeeemmm..
oiya, di gramed lagi banyak bgd buku baru,
aku pengen beli buku barunya eva ibbotson, pengen beli mitch albom 2 sama 3, waaa... pengen semuanya...
tapi yang paling pengen peter pan edisi yg cover merah, ada yang punya???
pinjem dunks!!!
bulan baru..
semangat baru..

widaaa ganbatte ne!!!

ucapan terimakasih

sebenernya aku masih labil
seenggaknya itu yg aku rasa, semuanya ga beres
bukannya sengaja, emang masih suka nganar aja..
kata ade aku sekarang ga nyambung diajak ngomong..
kata ayu juga aku ga connect..
tapi semuanya akan baek2 aja,, cuma perlu waktu..
tat's normal..

makasih buat temen2 yang tetep ada waktu aku lagi down banget..

nova, cin, sista, susti, yang mau dengerin aku nangis2 ga penting..
mau nungguin aku waktu itu..

K Dika, satu2nya aparat yg ngebesarin hati aku, yang nenangin aku, janji mau bantu aku..
I apreciate tat!

dina, nindy, nita, yang nemenin aku kapan aja..
pengen nangis rasanya kalo inget waktu itu..

Didi, temanku yg selalu ngerasa glamor..
yang mau menghibur waktu aku lagi susah, yang tetep bilang "keep smile!"
I really trust u!

Andris, yang emang lo ga tau apa yang terjadi tapi selalu bilang "gue ngeliat lo diem banget", "gue liat lo ga pernah senyum lagi sekarang", "gue liat lo sedih terus akhir2 ini", "Nah gitu dong, senyum, udah lama ga senyum lo"
I honor tat, makasih y ndris...

ester, pu2t, ari, lita yg setia menjadi sasaran penghiburan, hehee..

ega, maaf waktu itu wasting ur time..

irul yg juga ga tau apa2 tentang itu, tapi menghubungi di saat yg tepat,
waktu itu sejenak aku lupa lagi ada masalah besar, terima kasih cerita2 yg menghibur..

yang pasti ibu yg ga marah, yg terus bilang "udah mb, semuanya pasti baik2 aja"
a very magic words.
bapak yg no comment..
Lian yg mw diajak kerjasama, maafin mb de..
ade yg selalu nyenengin kalo diajak ngomong, adeku sayang..

hiks..

besok udah ga boleh lagi ky gini..
besok harus BANGUN!!

kamarku asing

kamarku sekarang jadi asing...
menakutkan..
bukan tempat yang nyaman lagi..
bukan tempat yang penuh inspirasi..
tapi tempat yang buat aku akut..
tempat yang buat aku nggak tenang..

aku...

ga suka jadi cengeng
ga suka jadi bodoh
ga suka jadi gila

aku butuh tenang

tapi kamarku malah jadi mengerikan..
Allah,, bantu aku...............

I've lost it all

I've lost tat musics
I've lost tat pictures
I've lost tat videos
i've lost my achievements
I've lost my works
I've lost all my memories
I've lost all my projects
I've lost all my files
I've lost all my passions
I've lost all my desires
I've lost all of tat stuffs
I've lost it all

I hate to be fragile!!!
am I the only one to be blame!!

WHY SHOULD ME???

why should I lost it
I wont make her panic!!
I wont make her thinking sad of me all the time..

God may punish me,,
but why should sumthin related with my fam??
why??
is it fair??
I really loved her God..

astagfirullah...
how many times had I spoke tat..

I know this is not the end of my world
I know life's still goin on
but is it really accomplished??

Allah, I might be too egoistic
more people sufferer than me in this world
but is crying a sin???

semangat baru

tadi aku barusan aja ngirimin karya tulis ke Unpar bareng nindy..
akhirnya semua jadi juga.
pertama aku ngerasa males banget, ngerasa bakal nggak bisa, ngerasa nggak tau caranya nulis karya tulis. sama juga kayak nindy, tapi setelah kami mendapat wejangan dari K Adi, kami ngerasa jadi lebih percaya diri. K adi bilang, apapun bentuk tulisan kita, yang penting isinya, yang paling penting kita berani ngirim, berani ngeluarin karya..

menang ga ya?? itu pasti pertanyaan yang wajar, cuma, aku sama nindy yang jelas udah berusaha..

beberapa waktu lalu aku juga ngirimin tulisan ke PT INTI Jakarta, trus juga ngirimin tulisan ke kaWanku,.

aku cuma nggak mau buang2 waktu dengan mikirin hal2 ga penting, everything will be, let it be..
aku udah cukup seneng punya temen kosan yg baek2, punya ortu yang perhatian, adek2 yang jahil dan penipu, temen2 kampus yang bodor2 euyh hehehe..
everything gonna be okay!
kata2 yang ajaib banget..

mungkin aja nindy bener..
everyone has their own stories, next, who knows??
biarlah yang lain melolong, aku tetep lari aja...

bdw pasti nggak ngerti kan maksud postingan ini?
emang aku ga minta ngerti tapi cuma lagi pengen cerita, biarlah aku sama temen2 deket aja yg tau, hehehe...

I'm Curious

Jatinangor sepi euy..

libur2 gini udah kaya kota maji ajah..
tapi kontras banget sama bandung,
kemaren baru maen ke bandung, hghh rame banget, penuh manusia, nafas aja susah..
untung saia tinggal di jatinangor yang permai ini,
oiya kemaren di bus ngeliat orang ngerokok, BT banget,
tapi jadi inget bang noval..
apa kabar ya dia..
manusia perokok yang baik hati, hehe
waktu pulang ibu cerita bang noval sempet maen ke rumah sekali,
tapi aku ga ketemu,
padahal pengen morotin bang noval, huhu..
dia mengambil selimut kesayanganku,
ya cuma bisa berdoa buat bang noval yang nyebelin, semoga sehat2 aja, wish u luck n ga jadi preman, hghghgh...

kembali ke laptop..
liburan ini aku pengen intropespeksi,
harus,
wajib,
ganbatte!!

Im just a little unwell

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like Im headed for a breakdown
And I dont know why

Im talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know theyve all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow Ive lost my mind

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Ive been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon theyll come to get me
Yeah, theyre taking me away

Well, Im just a little unwell
How I used to be
Im just a little unwell

(matchbox 20)

am I Innocent??

Oh, Johnny wishes he was famous
Spends his time alone
In the basement
With Lennon and Cobain
A guitar and a stereo
While he wishes he
Could escape this
It all seems so contagious
Not to be yourself and faceless
In a song that has no soul

Oh, Tina’s losing faith in what she knows
Hates her music
Hates all of her clothes
Thinks of surgery
And a new nose
Every calorie is a war
While she wishes she
Was a dancer
And that she'd never
Heard of cancer
She wishes God would give her
Some answers
And make her feel beautiful

One day
You'll stand up on your own, you'll stand up on your own
Yeah
Remember losing hope,
Remember feeling low,
Remember all the feelings and the day they stopped

WE ARE ALL INNOCENT
(our lady peace)

From the Simple Thing to the Preserved Environment

Global Warming is not the number one environmental challenge we face today… (Leonardo DiCaprio)

Well yeah, global warming is really popular issue today. In every media, we can see that global warming has become the scariest problem we face, as if we only think, how to keep the ozone well so that we can stay alive. We think about how to prevent the air pollution in big city, how to keep our forest preserved in our district, and how to save the earth. Many of us just think about how to keep the environment save without giving a real contribution. How many time we discussed about global warming with our beloved friend? How many time we told our parent that our forest, the source of our life has been destroyed? I’m sure the answer is often. In solving a problem, speaking is important but without doing anything, you will never get the solution.

It sounds interesting talking about environment nowadays, especially in our beloved country, Indonesia. We are facing a lot of environment problem now, pollution, the change of climate significantly, illegal logging and forest firing. Here’s a big question in my head why we are just aware now about our environment? Where we are when the problem just began?

Well, I was born in a small town in Bengkulu. Since I was child, my parents always tell me how the environment is important. I have learned to be aware with my environment long time before people talking too much about global warming, long time before the government take a serious affection to solve illegal logging problem and long time before Linkin Park is giving us up with their song, “What I’ve done”. Because I get the fresh water from the soil; I get the fresh air from the area full of green forest and I get my soul in my environment. My house is far from pollution. We keep many plantations alive in our yard. My father told me that it’s better for people to keep the grass alive on the yard than building a field for playing Basket Ball. Every Sunday morning I jog with my father, feeling the fresh morning air sweep in my face. In my childhood, I saw how amazing the seeds growth and how the haze really makes me wonder. I don’t even know that somewhere outside my town, it’s difficult to get only fresh breathe and preserved environment.

If I am asked what have I done to preserve the environment, I’m really shy because my contribution is not as much as the environment has given to me. I’m just a kid. I’m not superhero, I can not look for all of illegal logger and punish them, I can not ask big people out there to stop pollute the environment and I’m sure, I can not fly to the sky and conjure the ozone up.

What can I do as a teenager? First, I always try to throw the rubbish on the right place. This might be simple, but in fact, it’s so difficult to do. We are sometimes too lazy to do that and it’s easy to throw it randomly. Think! What will happen if all of us do the same thing? There will be a lot of rubbish that disturb our environment. Aware our self to throws the rubbish on the right place. This is so easy, but we often lazy

The next thing I have done is recycling. I can do it own. For example, I like to drink milk; I use the trace tin to store something like pen, pencil etc; I also use trace box and newspaper to cover something.

Then, I don’t use everything lavish. I use paper, tissue, water, electricity and other material sufficiently because there are sometimes limited supplies of natural resources. This won’t spend too much time and energy, and of course that won’t suffer you.

Then, I am pedestrian. I tried to go to school or campus on foot, minimally by angkot or bus not only because I don’t have a private car but it’s just about believing if we began to use common transportation, it means that we have decreased the danger of air pollution

Beside that, I and my family don’t use Freon. Our refrigerator is non CFC. We don’t use tin fragrance that danger the ozone. We also keep our house yard green by letting the grass and plants alive to freshener the air. We just make it tidy and good looked. Imagine I used to play basketball on the grasses in my house yard; I was also teached not to use chemical material too much. I must save trace plastic and other times when I need it, I shouldn’t buy it. Just reuse it.

If I am asked what I have done to preserve the environment, actually I will be really shy. My contribution is not as much as the environment has given to me. I’m just a kid. But at least, I have done little contribution to preserve my environment and I do believe, every big thing began with the small thing and I’m sure that global warming is not the only one problem we are facing now. Let us start from the environment around us as the part of this earth.

Well, I really love my environment. Although I’m not wonderwoman, although I can not look for all of illegal logger and punish them, I can not ask big people out there to stop pollute the environment and I can not fly to the sky and conjure the ozone up, I want to give really meaning contribution for the environment. I want people feel what I feel in my hometown. And the most important thing, in solving a problem, I’m sure speaking is important but without doing something, I’m just nothing.

My tea's gone cold

My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why I got out bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can’t see at all
And even if I could, it’d all be gray, but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it’s not so bad; it’s not so bad…

March, 2^nd 2008
10.08 PM

Hai!

Ini malem, jatinangor diguyur hujan, aku baru aja balik dari kosan dina, ngerjain tugas HI eropa, ugh, mana uwchaan, bechek, ga adha ouwcek, hehe, ya, intinya, jatinangor saat ini lumayan lengang.

Bdw, the rain makes me feel mellow, blue.. hehe..

Beberapa hari ini, alhamdulilah semuanya berjalan lancar, tapi lagi inget omongan nindy 2 hari yang lalu, hari itu semua berjalan normal sampe orang nggak penting lewat, terus nindy nanya “Wida, do u still love him?” aarghghh, “maksudnya??” okay, I’m really a big liar, I’ve been beaten. If she asked me ‘bout that, absolutely yes, toh nobody may change my mind, that’s my right.. but isn’t it tat crazy lil’thing? How can I spend my breath for an unimportant person I’ve not known well, that’s really geek

“Biasa aja ndy” OMG, kenapa kata2 ini yg keluar? what a nice liar. “All I need just an awareness and also awakeness, no need to regret.” Aku nambahin. Nindy juga ngasih kesimpulan “Iya, the key’s just REALIZE”. hahaha, lucu banget, u just keep a tree grew in front of u, but u dont even wana try to pick the fruit, nor the leaves...

My quirky’s gonna change a lot...

As my tea’s gone cold

But I know it’s not bad

Everything’s gonna be okay...

My Tea's Gone Cold

My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why I got out bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window, and I can’t see at all
And even if I could, it’d all be gray, but your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it’s not so bad; it’s not so bad…

March, 2^nd 2008
10.08 PM

Hai!

Ini malem, jatinangor diguyur hujan, aku baru aja balik dari kosan dina, ngerjain tugas HI eropa, ugh, mana uwchaan, bechek, ga adha ouwcek, hehe, ya, intinya, jatinangor saat ini lumayan lengang.

Bdw, the rain makes me feel mellow, blue.. hehe..

Beberapa hari ini, alhamdulilah semuanya berjalan lancar, tapi lagi inget omongan nindy 2 hari yang lalu, hari itu semua berjalan normal sampe orang nggak penting lewat, terus nindy nanya “Wida, do u still love him?” aarghghh, “maksudnya??” okay, I’m really a big liar, I’ve been beaten. If she asked me ‘bout that, absolutely yes, toh nobody may change my mind, that’s my right.. but isn’t it tat crazy lil’thing? How can I spend my breath for an unimportant person I’ve not known well, that’s really geek

“Biasa aja ndy” OMG, kenapa kata2 ini yg keluar? what a nice liar. “All I need just an awareness and also awakeness, no need to regret.” Aku nambahin. Nindy juga ngasih kesimpulan “Iya, the key’s just REALIZE”. hahaha, lucu banget, u just keep a tree grew in front of u, but u dont even wana try to pick the fruit, nor the leaves...

My quirky’s gonna change a lot...

As my tea’s gone cold

But I know it’s not bad

Everything’s gonna be okay...