Unforgettable Obake Matsuri

well, last sunday, I went to a japanese festival, Obake Matsuri by department of japan literature in my campuss. It was totally fun, for the first time in my life I did really enjoy the festival.
I woke up early that day, I was really intersted by that event. I've made an appointment with my friends, dina, bamby, douglas, masanto, and lala on 1 pm at FISIP. On a half pass 12, bamby texted me "Buketu,cosplay2an yuk,aq bwa kostum2 lho. ayo2.."
whoa, I was so curious what costumes did he bought. well, finally I went to that event wearing a vampire knights blazer (I dont know who's vampire knights actually but, I just wore the blazer :D).
our first destination there was Obake house (it's a japanese haunted house), but unfortunately, we were failed to get the queue. then we bought and ate some japanese food, Oishii nee (oishi means delicious). I like the okonomiyaki best, the octopus part was so yummy.
beside that, the best part of Obake Matsuri is cosplay competition, cosplay is an art where the artist wear some costumes following an anime character, a movie character, and other character in japanese customes. I loved the competitors' art. they're all total. I wore a vampire knights blazer borrowed by bamby, douglas wore the death note jacket, masanto wore the prince of tennis jacket, and bamby, I'm not really sure whay he wore, but he looked like someone in Naruto's stories :D
I was so happy that I could see many people wore the same costume as me, and I could take some photo with them.
we're still there untill the night. we wanted to see hanabi (hanabi means fireworks). well, because the hanabi would be shown after 9 pm, we decided to cancel it because we were damn hungry that time.
at 8 pm, we were out from the event. then we go to 'Refresh', a simple cafe around our campuss, then had an lately dinner.
that was totally fun my dear friends.. thankyou bamby-kun (see bamb, as you wished, I really make it BIG :D) for the blazer and for taking my photos.
well, when I was with my beloved friends, I felt like there's no burdens in my head, nothing's bothering me. I could be relax and glad, atashi no tomodachi wa kakkoi ne, hontouni arigatou minna :)

taking pictures with everyone who wore the same costume as me, thankyou bamby :D

bamby with monster-is-not-so-familiar-for-me :D

waited for hanabi but we couldnt make it, but it didnt matter, thanks opung..
Bamby was really interested to find anyone who wore the same costume as us, look, masanto took a picture with someone-he-dont-know but wore the prince of tennis jacket too, kawaiii :)
Dina and the 1st champion of cosplay competition, she wore a very pretty kimono
I dont have any idea about this one ;p

Patience or Stupidity?

I've just browsed on my twitter account and found a senior, kak Iip tweet a quote, and then my head was twisting for some minutes, here's the quote:
There's a thin line between patience and stupidity

Well, that means, I've been so stupid these time. Okay, every tomorrow could be a new start. I'll stop being stupidly patience. This is a fault that I often did in my entire life.
Latest, I've almost spent my whole time thinking about a person, just call this person X (I'll always love X as an initial, isnt it mysterious :D). I even did many stupid things for X, but what I've got? X even never says 'thanks' for everything I did for X.
X tells me manythings and I'll make sure that everything will be just alright, but X never at once asks me whether I'm okay. Ah, I never realized that I've did a mess untill a friend of mine asked me "Aren't you tired?".wohoo, that time I directly woke up, okay, I have to stop here before it's going further. Honestly I am too tired. I don't mind being friends with anykind of person, but you know, having a friend like X is a bit hard, for now I still can smile although my heart is upset. I was thinking that's what friends are for, but now I realize that being too nice is naive, my lovely friends :)
well, knowing someone isn't about just wearing him/her. Everything is about 'take' and 'give'. Now you may just 'take' but believe me it won't last my friends. If you like to share, there's also time you need to listen, no this is not about love. Love is another case, friendship is how you love wihthout purpose, and it will be naturally 'take' and 'give' :)
have a nice long weekend amigos!

night @ pvj with some besties (thankyou andri for the photos)

T_T

Hari ini saya sedih banget, perasaan saya kacau, nggak bisa nahan nangis. saya sedih, saya janjian sama dosen pemimbing saya ketemu hari ini, beliau nggak dateng, bukan, bukan itu yg bikin saya super sedih, demi ketemu si bapak, saya harus merelakan nggak dateng ke wisudaan salah satu teman terbaik dan terlama saya.
saya benci, saya benci nggak bisa dateng ke wisudaan sahabat saya. di kampus ketemu temen ditanyain "nggak dateng ke wisudaan nindy? ih kamu kan temennya masa nggak dateng?"
they dont know how hard to make this decision, berat banget milih ketemu dosen yang akhirnya nggak dateng dan memutuskan nggak dateng ke wisudaan nindy.
ibu saya bahkan bilang "Ya Allah, masa kamu nggak dateng ke wisudaan nindy", seandainya ibu tau gimana dosen pembimbing saya, saya nggak bisa seenak saya sendiri.
saya pengen banget dateng, nindy bilang "dahulukan skripsi", tapi saya nampaknya sangat sial hari ini, udah nggak dateng wisuda nindy, dosen saya juga ngebatalin ketemu.
sejak nindy sidang 2 bulan lalu saya udah berniat pasti dateng, tapi apa.. nindy bilang nggak apa2, tapi saya tetep sedih, saya pengen liat sahabat saya pake toga. sekarang liat foto wisudaannya di facebook bikin nyesek, I should be there, I'm sorry nindy, Congratulation dear.. semoga dilancarin urusan2 sesudah wisuda ini, sukses teman...

Don't Worry, I'm not That Sorry :)

You dont have to feel sorry about me. Dont ever took a pity on me too. I'm trying to get a life and I dont want you to ruin it for the second time. Everything about us, no, about you and me, is over. You have nothing to do with me, and I should mean nothing to you.
Never act like you care, it really hurts.
You're not an angel, nor a saint, so with your honour, please stop this. Stop bothering me with your halfway kindness, what for? It wont change the way I'm feeling and the way you're doing.
Err.. dont tell me what to do, and dont promise me manythings. You're not even my father. you're not in the place to be nice to me, I wont care what you are doing, they're none of my bussiness.
No, I'll never hate someone like you, you are really the best I've ever known (at least untill now). I used to believe in everything you said, but not now when you're nice because you thought that you're a fault for me.
It's totally okay now, you.. let's forget it all. I may need many years to do but wont it be easier for you, so what to worry? you.. please get your life, I might have mine someday :)

(I wish I could tell you these, but in fact, I cant, haha.. how pathetic :D)

JAKARTA

Hola amigos!

Siapa yang nggak suka Jakarta? ngacung! pasti banyak banget.
kesan orang-orang yang tinggal di Jakarta adalah kebanyakan kesan buruk akan suatu kota yang penuh manusia, sesak, panas, keras, macet, plus copet.. hh.. kebanyakan terkenal yang jelek-jeleknya.
sampai akhir tahun lalu, Jakarta yang saya tau cuma sebatas Jakarta Selatan :p
daerah Lebak Bulus, Bintaro, sampe Blok M yg saya khatam, mau ditinggalin sendiri juga bisa pulang deh ke rumah pakde saya di Pesanggrahan, walopun saya pernah nyasar ke Bintaro Plaza malem2 dan panik sendiri :D
Buat saya Jakarta itu mendebarkan *lebay. Januari kemarin, saya belajar mencicipi kerasnya Ibukota. Di hari pertama mencari kosan di Jakarta, mas saya yang nemenin langsung ngasih wejangan, harus hati2, banyak copet, tas harus dipegang yang kuat, saya cuma iya iya aja, eh belum selesai mas saya ngomong, saya udah ngeliat dengan mata sendiri ada orang yang dicopet di Bajaj. Detik itu juga, saya langsung memutuskan bahwa Jakarta bukan sahabat saya, saya CUPU di Ibukota!
Akhirnya saya tinggal bertiga di sebuah kamar kecil (bukan WC yaa) di Jalan Pejambon II selama Januari 2010. Dari Kosan, saya dan teman2 seperjuangan lain tinggal loncat ke Deplu.
sekarang,
saya rindu Jakarta...
rindu kosan yang sempit, sarapan dan minum teh bareng disiapin sama bunda tiap pagi, keyla, cucu bunda yang cerewet, dan kipas angin yang setiap malam nangkring di kepala saya.
saya rindu Jakarta...
rindu ruangan saya dulu di lantai 4 BPPK-OI Deplu, rindu suasana hangat yang implisit saya rasakan, rindu ibu sri, rindu pak erlangga, rindu mba debbi yang nggak keberatan diberisikin, rindu semua penghuni disana, rindu kertas2, gunting, lem dan kliping2 berita, rindu mesin fotokopi dan naik turun tangga, rindu suara sepatu mas riza setiap kali mengambil air di galon, rindu direktori ordner yang dulu sempat membuat saya mimisan mengarsipkannya, rindu sama semua yang ada di deplu..
saya rindu Jakarta...
rindu dengan peta busway yang saya bawa kemana pun pergi, rindu menentukan rute2 bus transjakarta, rindu mengunjungi tempat2 baru, rindu berdiri susah payah di bus transjakarta...
saya rindu Jakarta, rindu perasaan cemas tiap kali berjalan, perasaan tidak aman, perasaan seolah semua mata mengintai saya yang orang baru, rindu mengingat aturan2 tidak tertulis, memakai tas tidak di sisi jalan, tidak memangku tas di bajaj, tidak membuka dompet di tempat umum, dan rindu menjadi orang 'sotoy' biar nggak ketauan orang baru.
kangen senen dan buku2nya yang bikin saya ngences, yang harganya murah2, yang disana saya bisa ketemu buku2 lamaaaa kesukaan saya (lupus, olga, 5 sekawan, trio detektif, etc etc) dan buku2 penting macam buku latihan TOEFLnya Baron, ahh.. envy Jakarta for having a place like Senen :(
Intinya kangen JAKARTA dan baik buruknyaaaaa..

Jakarta, Kosan, Kayla, Kota Tua, Planetarium, ah, miss all those spots

di kota tua, pengalaman jatuh paling memalukan :p
main2 masih pake baju kerja, melepas stres ampe malem liat ramenya kota tua, ketakutan di stasiun kota, buru2 ke halte transjakarta, turun di halte deplu, diliatin orang2 yang keheranan ngeliat ada yg turun di kantor malem2, pulang kecapean tp seneng..

di depan planetarium
(dipoto sm chika)

sandra dan kayla

kosan yang sempit tapi hangat *panas maksudnya, ngangenin :)

BPPK-OI Kemenlu and all its crushes :)

inilah gedung kantor paling dikangenin sedunia :D

kangen keluar jalan ini lagi setiap sore...
(dipoto sm ica)

berpose berkali2 sm pak erlangga, Our Boss, kangen ruangan pak erlangga yg wangi buah :)

(dipoto sm mba debbi)

Bu Sri, Bu Sri, kangeeen >.< (dipoto sm ica)

kesempatan langka foto di ruangan kerja Bpk.Ali Alatas
(dipoto sm ica)

rapih2 di depan pintu masuk
(dipoto sm ica)

Babies are Miracle

Hola Amigos! have you watched that superb cute video?
I was really impressed with that trailer and I'm so damn wanting to see the documenter movie but I just dont know where to get it.
well, I'm actually not a really babies' lover. I do love more than 1 year babies but I'm a little bit afraid of under 7 months babies. I'm afraid to touch them, they're like a glass .Until now, I still have no courage to hold them, they're really fragile. they even can not stand their neck on their own, it's so scary for me, I'm afraid that I will broke them T_T
My mum always taught me how to hold an under 7 month baby, but I'm still afraid. That's why I said that babies are miracle. They're fragile but they could survive growing up. Babies could not talk but they always get what they need. If my family ask me to keep their baby, I'll cry too when the baby cries, because I feel useless when I dont know what the baby wants, I mean, baby can't speak, I dont know what should I do. Baby do cry not only when they're hungry, but also in other many moments, when they feel cold, when they feel lonely, when they need some sleep, when they're thirsty, when they feel not comfortable, ah in other uncountable moments.
I can't hold a baby yet but I think to learn more, that's why I hate people who ignores their babies. If you cant keep a baby then dont decide to have a baby that easy. It's so ironic to read many news about how a baby should end the life because of the parents that pay little attention to them. Although they (babies) can not speak yet, although they just can do nothing, they have the right to have a life. people who brings them here, to this world should take responsible of them untill they can do something with their life.
well, for everyone who's raising a baby, you're doing a great job, I adore you all :)
Here's some pictures of my babies:

Fabian, My Nephew in Bogor, I want to see him soon, I guess He can call me now, "Cik Wit, Cik Wit"

Aqilla, My causin, she was born on the same date with me, but 19 years afterYoyo, My causin, I love love love him so, I hope I still can see him when I back home (well, have you heard about his story? here I wrote it Cerita Tentang Yoyo) >_< Fa'ikh, My Nephew in Jakarta, seldom see him but maybe next month I'll meet him

Alea, My Niece in Cikarang, She's so smart

After all, God who creates them is The Greatest, I love you Dear God :)
have a nice day everyone..

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